I couldn’t afford to buy my daughter a new talking doll for her birthday, so I got a great second-hand one instead. But when the doll uttered the chilling words “You promised to stay” in my mother’s voice, it brought me face-to-face with a devastating family secret.
I sat at the kitchen table, counting out small bills and coins from the little savings tin I kept tucked away in the cupboard. The tin felt lighter than I’d hoped, but that wasn’t really a surprise.
What I needed was the kind of money I hadn’t seen since David left.
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My fingers fumbled over the coins, hoping I’d somehow miscounted. But no… twenty-three dollars and seventy-two cents. That was all there was. It was nowhere near enough for the talking doll Clara had been begging for.
A seven-year-old’s dreams shouldn’t cost this much, but they do. It’s not even about the doll, but the big grin that would light up her face when she saw it.
A mother should be able to give her child that. I was failing her.
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I sighed, slumping back in my chair, and stared at the pile of change like it might rearrange itself if I stared hard enough.
“This won’t work,” I muttered, shaking my head.
My gaze drifted over to the fridge, where I’d pinned Clara’s drawing of us as stick figures holding hands under a blue sky. Her birthday was in two days and I couldn’t let her down, not again.
That’s when I remembered.
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I’d seen a doll in the second-hand shop I passed on the way to work each day. It wasn’t brand new, but it looked almost perfect. It had the old-fashioned charm you don’t see in toys anymore.
My stomach tightened at the thought of giving Clara something second-hand but this was different, wasn’t it? This doll had character and a price tag I could afford.
Besides, I was all out of options. I grabbed my coat and headed out the door.
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As I walked down the familiar streets, my mind raced with reasons why this might be a terrible idea. What if the doll didn’t work? What if Clara noticed it wasn’t the exact one she wanted? The guilt gnawed at me.
The bell above the shop door jingled as I stepped inside. The place smelled faintly of dust and aged wood. I weaved through old furniture and shelves stacked with outdated electronics, heading straight for the toy section.
There she was.
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I reached for the doll carefully, as if touching it might make it disappear. Her cheeks were round and pink, and her pale blue eyes gleamed.
The ribbon tied in her hair was a little frayed at the edges, and her little dress was clean and well-kept, even if it was outdated.
Best of all, it was a talking doll, just like Clara wanted.
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My fingers hesitated. Something about the doll’s eyes seemed almost too knowing. But I brushed it off, reasoning that I was being ridiculous.
“How much is this one?” I asked the shopkeeper, holding the doll up.
He squinted at it, rubbing his chin. “That one? Old, but still good as new. Fifteen dollars.”
It was fate.
Fifteen dollars meant I’d still have a little left over. It wasn’t perfect, but it was enough.
I handed over the money. As the shopkeeper wrapped the doll in tissue paper, I ignored the prickling sensation of unease creeping up my neck.
Clara’s birthday came faster than I expected.
We sat on the living room floor, her eyes practically glowing as she tore through the wrapping paper. Whatever doubts I’d had about the doll melted away the moment she saw it.
She held it up, inspecting every inch like it was the most magical thing she’d ever seen.
“She’s perfect, Mom!” Clara squealed, hugging the doll to her chest. “I’m gonna call her Rosie!”
I watched her settle onto the floor, setting Rosie up for a tea party with the little cups and plates she always kept nearby.
My heart warmed. Maybe I hadn’t failed after all.
Then Clara’s fingers found the button.
“Oh, look, she talks too!” she giggled, pressing it.
I leaned in, expecting the usual sweet, recorded phrases. Something like “I love you” or “Let’s be friends.” But what came out was… different.
“You promised to stay,” the doll said, her voice haunted and filled with despair.
Clara blinked. “Huh. That’s funny. She sounds like Grandma.”
My blood ran cold. I forced a laugh, even though I felt like I couldn’t breathe.
“I’m sure it’s just an old recording,” I said, trying to keep my voice steady.
“Maybe the doll used to belong to someone who—”
“No, she sounds just like Grandma,” Clara insisted, pressing the button again.
“You promised to stay.”
It was unmistakable now — that was my mother’s voice! I swallowed hard, trying to rationalize it, but how could this second-hand doll have my mother’s voice? It was impossible.
My hands felt clammy as I watched Clara play, but I said nothing.
That evening, we sat around my mother’s table for Clara’s birthday dinner. Clara, ever bright and chatty, was bouncing in her seat, barely able to contain her excitement.
“Grandma,” she said between bites, her eyes gleaming with enthusiasm, “can you say, ‘you promised to stay,’ please?”
My mother paused, fork halfway to her mouth, a puzzled expression crossing her face.
She chuckled lightly. “What’s that, sweetheart? Why do you want me to say that?”
Clara grinned, oblivious to the sudden shift in the room. “It’s what my doll says! Rosie. She says it, and she sounds just like you when she does. It’s so funny!”
The words hung in the air like a gust of icy wind. I watched as my mother’s smile faltered and her face turned pale.
Mom’s gaze flicked to mine, her eyes wide and uncertain.
“The doll sounds like me?” she asked softly, her voice tight.
“Yeah!” Clara chirped, unaware of the unease she was stirring. “Exactly like you. She says it every time I press the button. ‘You promised to stay.’”
There was a beat of silence, heavy and uncomfortable. I could see the color drain from my mother’s cheeks, her hands trembling ever so slightly as she set her fork down.
“That’s… strange,” Mom murmured, staring hard at her plate.
I forced a laugh, though it sounded brittle, even to my ears.
“It’s probably just some old, weird recording,” I said, but I couldn’t meet her eyes. “A coincidence.”
My mother didn’t respond. She simply nodded, her lips pressed into a thin line. But I could feel her unease in the atmosphere. Something had shifted between us and I realized then that this was not a coincidence.
A few days later, Mom came over. I hadn’t been able to shake the tension between us since the dinner, but she hadn’t said anything more about it, and neither had I.
Maybe we were both pretending everything was fine because that’s what we did. But today felt different from the moment she walked in.
Her eyes scanned the room and immediately locked onto Rosie, who was sitting neatly on the couch, propped up like she was part of the family.
Mom’s face went pale. Her steps faltered as she moved toward the doll, almost like she wasn’t sure if she should touch it.
“Mom?” I asked, my voice tentative, as I watched her reach for Rosie.
Her hands trembled when she picked the doll up, fingers brushing over the ribbon in its hair like she was handling something precious. The air in the room felt heavy and suffocating like everything was about to crack open.
She pressed the button, and there it was again.
“You promised to stay.”
The words hung in the air like a blade. Mom’s shoulders shook, and her breath came in shallow gasps.
“I can’t believe it,” she whispered, more to herself than to me.
I stepped closer, my heart pounding. “Mom, what is it? Do you know why Clara’s doll sounds just like you?”
She turned toward me, her eyes already wet with tears. “It sounds like me because that is my voice,” she choked out, clutching the doll to her chest. “This doll belonged to your sister.”
Sister? The word hit me like a punch to the gut. “What are you talking about? I don’t have a sister.”
Mom broke down. She sank onto the couch, still clutching Rosie to her chest, and tears streamed down her face.
“You did… before you were born. Her name was Jennifer, but we… we lost her.” Her voice cracked under the weight of those words. “She was just five. I made this recording after she died. Your father couldn’t bear the loss. I was already pregnant with you, but he left soon afterward. This recording was my way of keeping a piece of them with me.”
My mouth went dry. I stood there, paralyzed, as her confession wrapped itself around me. This doll had belonged to my dead sister, and I’d unwittingly brought it home like some cursed souvenir.
“I can’t believe it,” I whispered, my legs feeling weak. “Why didn’t you ever tell me?”
Rosie slid onto the sofa as Mom buried her face in her hands. “I didn’t want you to grow up in the shadow of that loss. I thought if I kept it buried, it would stay buried.”
I stared at Rosie, my stomach twisting into knots.
She wasn’t just a doll anymore. She was a symbol of the painful secrets Mom had kept from me.
Clara’s innocent laughter echoed from the other room. I glanced at the doll again, now understanding why it had felt so off. It wasn’t just a toy. It was a remnant of promises broken and a grief too heavy to carry.
“I’m sorry,” Mom whispered. “I should’ve told you.”
I reached over and took her hand. We didn’t say anything else. There were no words to fill the cracks left by the truth.
All I could think was that the past has a way of finding you, even when you’ve spent a lifetime trying to bury it.